February 22, 2010

Rat race

The cleaning lady at my office told me today "You look tired" and really, I'm not! So ... I must be looking really bad. I thought for a second, here is this sweetheart of a lady who gets to work by 7 am and works a full shift on her feet all day long and then maybe goes to a second job afterward. Surely her life is much harder than mine - I work a 9-5 sitting in an office. Why do I feel and look this way then? Probably because I've had it with this freaking rat race. I thought I saw an exit strategy a few months ago, but now I wonder. It doesn't seem to be as clear as it seemed then and I'm just tired. I feel like I no longer have the stamina to do 9-5 and then come home and work on everything MMG, Blogalicious, B-Link, My Blogalicious. When is the rat race going to end? When am I going to be able to do something that I actually love?

Addendum: I know I'm b!tching and I don't mean to whine, but I'm pretty frustrated by what seems to be lack of control of my life. Today is payday, so I was reminded why I have to keep my day job; but on the other hand, why am I rushing my child to bed at night, after only spending about 2 hours with her, so that I can get back to work? I feel like there's just so much to do and so little time and that this 9-5 is kinda getting in the way. It's time to go out on our own! If you've made that leap, please share how you did it.

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Justice Fergie said...

girl, you KNOW i'm right there with you. have faith! something's about to pop off soon. i have to believe that or i'll go batsh*t crazy ;)

La'Tonya Richardson said...

I've been feeling a pang of wanting to do something different. My hours are great, fulltime job and pay, with part-time hours. But I still want to do, what I really WANT to do.

Hang in there.

ParlinMom said...

I feel the pain on the opposite end. I'm a SAHM and I am doing it all on my own, by the time the hubs comes in at night (8ish) he is too beat down to spend much time with the little one and then she is off to bed. But in the middle of it all I have started an event planning biz that is driving me crazy and making me wish I didn't and just have went back to work.

Keep you head up and if there is something that you MUST do look for that way to make it happen and push ahead.

Krystal Grant said...

OMG. I just wrote a post tonight about being too tired to do all of the things I have to do. I have no helpful advice for you because I haven't made that leap yet. But in my mind, I've quit my job many, many times.

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